time enough for love-时间足够你爱(英文版)-第71章

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inary　beauty。　I　tried　to　remember　if　he　ha；~d　been　that　beautiful　a　hundred　years　back。　I　am　not　indifferent　to　male　beauty；　but　my　sensuality　is　not　perfectly　balanced；　in　the　presence　of　a　homely　female　and　a　beautiful　male；　I　tena　to　look　at　the　female。　So　I'll　never　be　an　esthete；　I　lack　judgment　in　matters　of　beauty。　I　apologize　in　advance　to　'any　female　who　finds　my　primitive　attitude　offensive。
　　
　　But　I'll　share　bed　with　Galahad　in　preference　to　a　selfcentered　female　beauty；　he's　warm　and　gentle　and　good　pany；　with　a　roguish　playfulness　not　unlike　that　of　the　twins。　The　thought　ran　through　my　mind　that　I　would　like　to　meet　his　sister…or　mother　or　daughter…a　female　version　of　him　in　character　and　personality；　as　well　as　in　appearance。
　　
　　Tamara！　The　above　was　froth　at　the　top　of　my　mind　because　I　was　unable　to　face　at　once　the　implications　of　Galahad's　announcement。
　　
　　He　went　on：　〃Close　your　mouth；　dear；　I　was　as　startled　as　you　are。　But；　even　if　we　hadn't　been　friends　years　back；　on　Tamara's　motion　I　would　have　voted　for　you　sight　unseen…　so　that　I　could　study　you。　Tamara　never　makes　a　mistake。　But　were　you　so　mind…ill　that　you　needed　that　much　from　her？　Or　so　superhuman　that　she　wanted　that　much　from　you？　But　you　are　neither；　or　I　failed　to　see　it。　You　aren't　ill；　I　think；　other　than　a　touch　of　wild…goose　fever。　You　may　be　superman；　but　none　of　us　found　it　o~it　last　night。　If　you　are　a　superstud；　you　restrained　yourself。　Hamadryad　did　say　at　breakfast　that　a　woman　is　happy　in　your　arms。　But　she　did　not　imply　that　you　are　the　Galaxy's　greatest　lover。
　　
　　〃Being　one　of　Minerva's　parents　is　in　your　favor；　none　of　them　has　any　serious　shortings；　Ishtar　made　sure　of　that
　　
　　…Ishtar　knows　more　about　you　than　you　do　yourself；　she　can　read　a　gene　chart　the　way　other　people　read　print…and　Mmerva　herself　is　proof　that　no　mistakes　were　made。　I　mean；　look　at　Minerva：　sweet　as　the　morning　breeze　and　as　beautiful　as　Hamadryad　in　her　own　fashion；　and　with　an　intelligence　level　so　high　you　wouldn't　believe　it…yet　so　modest　she's　almost　humble。
　　
　　〃But　still；　it's　Tamara。　Your　fate　was　settled　before　you　reached　this　house。　Slow　ride　home；　wasn't　it？〃
　　
　　〃Well　。　。　one　doesn't　expect　speed　from　a　nuilboat。　Though　I　was~　surprised　to　find　one　in　a　young　colony。　I　expected　muledrawn　wagons。〃
　　
　　〃Lots　of　those；　too。　But　Lazarus　says　that　this　time　h'e　traveled　with　'seven　elephants'…we　fetched　a　mammoth　amount　of　equipment。　That's　an　overpowered　nullboat；　rebuilt　to　Lazarus'　specifications；　and　could　have　fetched　you　here　in　a　fifth　the　time　it　did。　But　Ira　let　Lazarus；　know　that　he　wanted　time　to　make　some　calls。　So　Lazarus　probably　told　whichever　twin　was　in　charge…or　signaled　her　somehow；　he　is　almost　telepathic　with　them…to　give　you　a　long；　slow　ride。　Which　you　got；　and　I　bet　that　Laz　and　Lor　never　changed　expression。〃
　　
　　〃They　didn't。〃
　　
　　〃Was　sure　of　it。　They　are　not　children…you　should　see　them　handle　a　spaceship。　Anyhow；　Ira　talked　to　Ishtar；　then　to　Tamara；　then　we　held　a　family　conference　and　settled　your　fate。　Lazarus　confirmed　it　while　you　played　with　the　twins…　who　were　given　a　chance　to　veto　it　later。　But　they　ratified　it　at　once。　They　not　only　like　you；　but　Aunt　Tammy's　wishes　are　law。〃
　　
　　I　was　still　bemused。　〃Apparently　much　went　on　tha~　I　didn't　suspect。〃
　　
　　〃You　weren't　supposed　to。　A　better　cook　would　have　stayed　to　get　your　breakfast；　had　I　not　been　deputized　to　tell　you…　old　friends　and　all　that…and　to　answer　questions。〃
　　
　　〃I'm　confused　about　that　conference。　I　thought　Tamara　got　home　just　before　dinner。〃
　　
　　〃She　did。　Oh…　Athene；　are　you　listening；　dear？〃
　　
　　〃Uncle　Cuddly；　you　know　I　don't　listen　to　private　conversations。〃
　　
　　〃The　hell　you　don't。　It'll　be　all　right；　Justin；　Teena　keeps　secrets。　Tell　him　how　to　call　someone；　Teena。〃
　　
　　〃Tell　me　to　whom　you　wish　to　speak；　Justin；　I　have　radio　links　to　every　farm。　Or　anywhere。　And　I　can　always　reach　Ira　and　Lazarus。〃
　　
　　〃Thank　you；　Teena。　Now　if　you　must　listen；　pretend　not　to。　The　conference　was　here；　Justin；　；Teena　fetched　in　Tamara's　voice　and　Ira's。　Could　have　fetched　voices　from　the　nullboat…　but　you　were　the　subject。　By　the　way；　Teena　is　one　reason　this　family　isn't　farming；？instead　we　supply　services　that　colonies　usually　don't　have　so　soon。　Oh；　you　can　farm　if　you　want　to；　we've　claimed　quite　a　bit　of　land。　Or　there　are　other　ways　to
　　
　　make　a　living。　All　right；　I've　done　my　besL　e？〃
　　
　　〃Galahad；　I　think　I　understand　everything　but　why　Tamara　Wants　me　In　your　family。〃
　　
　　〃You'll　have　to　ask　her。　I　told　you　I　was　checking　for　your　halo。　Can't　see　it。〃
　　
　　〃I　don't　wear　it　in　hot　weather。　Obadiah；　don't　farce　around；　this　is　terribly　important　to　me。　Why　do　you　keep　saying　that　Tam　ara's　wishes　settled　it？〃
　　
　　〃You　know　her；　man。〃
　　
　　〃I　know　how　important　her　wishes　are　to　me。　But　I've　been　in　love　with　her　for　many　years。〃　I　told　him　things　I　had　long　kept　to　nlyself。　〃So　that's　the　way　it　went。　A　great　hetaera　never　proposes　a　contract　and　usually　won't　listen　if　a　man　is　bold　enough　to　propose　one　himself。　But　I…　well；　I　made　a　nuisance　of　myself。　Tamara　finally　convinced　me　that　the　married　only　to　have　children　and　did　not　intend　to　have　more。　I　feel　sure　that　money　was　not　a　factor…〃
　　
　　〃It　wouldn't　be。　Oh；　I　don't　mean　that　Tamara　is　silly　that　way；　I've　heard　her　say　that　since　money　is　the　universal　symbol　for　value　received；　one　should　accept　it　proudly。　But　Tamara　wouldn't　marry　for　money；　she　wouldn't　feel　that…　Or　perhaps'she　would；　I　think　I'll　ask　her。　Mm　。　。　interesting。　Our　Tamara　is　a　plex　person。　Sorry；　dear；　I　interrupted。〃
　　
　　〃I　say　money　was　not　the　controlling　factor；　as　she　had　suitors　with　ten　to　a　hundred　times　my　modest　wealth；　yet　she　married　none　of　them。　So　I　shut　up　and　was　content　to　have　part　of　Tamara…spend　nights　with　her　when　I　was　permitted　to；　share　her　pany　in　happiness　circles　at　other　times；　pay　her　as　much　as　I　could…as　much　as　she　would　accept；　I　mean；　she　often　set　her　fee　by　refusing　part　of　a　gift…she　did　with　me；　I　don't　know　what　she　did　with　wealthy　clients。
　　
　　〃Years　and　years　of　that；　then　she　announced　that　she　was　retiring…and　I　was　stunned。　I　had　taken　rejuvenation　during　this　time　but　hadn't　noticed　that　she　was　any　older。　But　she　wa~　firm　about　it　and　left　New　Rome。
　　
　　〃Galahad；　it　left　me　impotent。　Oh；　not　incapable；　but　what　had　been　ecstasy　turned　out　to　be　mere　exercise　not　worth　the　troubl？　Has　this　ever　happened　to　you？〃　；
　　
　　〃No。　Perhaps　I　should　say；　'Not　yet；'　since　I'm　still　working　on　my　secon'd　century。〃
　　
　　〃Then　you　don't　know　what　I　mean。〃
　　
　　〃Only　vicariously。　But　may　I　quote　something　Lazarus
　　
　　A　A~
　　
　　once　said？　He　was　speaking　to　Ira；　but　privacy　was　not　placed　on　it；　you'll　e　across　it　in　his　raw　memoirs。
　　
　　〃'Ira；'　he　said；　'there　were　many　years　when　I　hardly　bOthered　with　women…not　only　unmarried　hut　celibate。　After　all；　how　much　variety　can　there　be　in　the　slippery　friction　of　mucous　membranes？
　　
　　〃'Then　I　realized　that　there　was　infinite　variety　in　women　as　people　。　。　and　that　sex　was　the　most　direct　route　tc~　knowing　a　woman　。　。　a　route　they　like；　one　that　we　like；　and　often　the　only　route　that　can　break　down　barriers　and　permit　close　acquaintance。
　　
　　〃'And　in　discovering　this；　I　gained　renewed　interest　in　the　friendly　frolic　itself；　happy　as　a　lad　with　his　first　bare　tit　warm　in　his　hand。　Happier…as　never　again　was　I　merely　a　piston　to　her　cylinder；　each　woman　was　a　unique　individual　worth　knowing；　and；　if　we　took　time　enough；　we　might　find　we　loved　each　other。　But　at　least　we　offered　each　other　pleasure　and　a　haven　from　cares；　we　wereni　simply　masturbating；　with　the　other　just　a　sex　doll。'
　　
　　〃That's　close　to　what　Lazarus　said；　Justin。　You　went　through　something　like　that？〃
　　
　　〃Yes。　Somewhat。　A　long　period　when　sex　wasn't　worth　the　trouble。　But　I　got　over　it　。　。　with　a　woman　as　fine　in　her　own　way　as　Tamara　is；　although　I　didn't　fall　in　love　with　her　nor　she　with　me。　She　taught　me　something　I　had　forgotten；　that　sex　can　be　friendly　and　worthwhile　without　the　intense　love　I　felt　for　Tamara。　You　see；　a　'friend　；of　mine；　wife　of　another　'friend　and　they　were　both　close　to　me…as　a　special　gift　she'introduced　me　to　another　hetaera；　a　great　beauty；　and　arranged　for　me　a　holiday　with　her…paid　for　by　my　friends；　th？y　could　afford　it；　she　is　wealthy。　This　beautiful　hetaera；　Magdalene…〃
　　
　　Galahad　looked　delighted。　〃Maggie！〃
　　
　　〃Why；　yes；　she　d~d　use　that　pillow　name。　'Magdalene'　was　her　vocational　name。　But　when　she　learned　that　I　keep　the　Archives；　she　told　me　her　registered　name。〃
　　
　　〃Rebecca　Sperling…Jones。〃'　〃Then　you　do　know　her。〃　；；　〃All　my　life；　Justin　darling；　I　nursed　at　those　beautiful
　　
　　breasts。　She's　my　mother；　dear…what　a　delightful　coincidence！〃
　　
　　I　was　delighted；　too；　but　more　interested　in　something　else。；　〃So　that's　where　you　get　your　beauty。〃
　　
　　〃Yes；　but　also　from　my　geic　father。　Becky…Maggie…　tells　me　I　look　more　like　him。〃
　　
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　　〃Really？　If'　you　permit；　I'll　look　up　your　liheage　when　I　get　back　to　Secundus。〃　An　archivist　should　not　consult　the　Archives　from　personal　curiosity；　I　was　presuming　on　friendship　to　suggest　it。
　　
　　〃Dear；　you're　not　going　back　to　Secundus。　But　you　can　get；　it　from　Athene　clear　back　to　the　first　push　in　the　bush　after　Ira　Howard's　death。　But　let's　talk　about　Mama。　She's　a　jolly　one？　isn't　she？　As　well　as　a　beauty。〃
　　
　　〃Both。　I　told　you　how　much　she　did　for　me。　Your　mother　assurhed　that　this　holiday　was　going　to　be　fun…fun　for　both　of　us…and　it　was　indeed！…and　I　forgot　about　being　uninterested　in　sex。　I'm　not　speaking　of　technique；　I　suspect　that　any　high…priced　hetaera　in　New　Rome　is　as　skilled　as　any　famous　courtesan　in　history。　I　mean　her　attitude。　Maggie　is　fun　to　be　around；　in　bed　or　out。　Laugh　wrinkles　but　no　frown　wrinkles。〃
　　
　　Galahad　nodded　agreement　as　he　wiped　egg　from　his　platter。　〃Yes；　that's　Mama。　She　gave　me　a　most　happy　childhood；　Justin；　so　much　so　that　I　was　grumpy　at　being　shoved'　out　when　my　eighteenth　rolled　around。　'But　she　was　sweet　about　it。　After　my　adulthood　party　she　reminded　me　that　she　was　moving　out；　too；　and　going　back　to　her　profession。　Her　contract　with　Papa；　my　foster　father；　was　a　term　contract；　over　when　I　b鏲ame　a　legal　adult　。　。　so　if　I　wanted　to　see　Maggie　again…and　I　wanted　to！…it　would　be　cash　at　the　counterpane；　no　family　discount。　Since　I　was　a　poor…but…honest　research　assistant；　paid　only　two　or　three　times　what　I　was　worth；　I　couldn't　have　afforded　thirty　seconds　with　her；　much　less　a　night；　Mama's　fees　were　always　sky…high。〃
　　
　　Galahad　looked　thoughtfully'　happy。　〃Goodness；　that　seems　long　ago…more　than　a　century　and　a　half；　Justin。　I　didn't　realize　that　Becky…Maggie…Mama…that　Magdalene　was　being　both　wise　and　kind。　I　was　grown　up　only　legally　and　physically；　and　if　she　hadn't　cut　the　cord；　I　would　have　hung　around；　an　overgrown　infant；　cluttering　her　life　and　interfering　with　her　vocation。　So　I　did　grow　up；　and　when　I　married；　my　first　wife　named　our　first　daughter　'Magdalene'　and　asked　Maggie　to　be　godmother　。　。　then　I　could　hardly　believe　that　this　beautiful　creature　had　borne　me　and　I　had　no　special　urge　to　play　Oedipus　to　her　regal　beauty；　I　was　too　much　in　love　with　my　wife。　Yes；　Maggie　is　a　fine　girl…
　　
　　although　she　spoiled　me　as　a　kid。　Was　that　holiday　the　only　time　you　had　her？〃
　　
　　〃No。　But　not　often。　As　you　say；　she　was　expensive。　She　offered　me　a　fifty…percent　discount…〃
　　
　　〃Well！　You　did　impress　her。〃
　　
　　〃…as　she　knew　I　wasn't　wealthy。　But　even　at　that；　I　couldn't　afford　her　pany　often。　But　she　got　me　over　my　emotional　hump；　and　I'm　grateful　to　her。　A　fine　woman；　Galahad；　you　have　reason　to　be　proud　of　her。〃
　　
　　〃I　think　so。　But；　Justin　dear；　your　mention　of　that　discount　makes　me　certain~　that　she　remembers　you　just　as　fondly…〃
　　
　　〃Oh；　I　hardly　think　so；　Years　back；　Galahad。〃
　　
　　〃Don't　trip；　in　your　modesty；　dear；　Maggie　grabbed　every　crown　the　traffic　would　bear。　But　the　'delightful　coincidence'　is　more　than　just　the　fact　that　you've　had　my　mother…after　all；　high　as　her　fees　were；　New'　Rome　has　many　wealthy　men　attractive　enough　that　Maggie　would　accept　them。　The　'delightful'　aspect　is　that　this　very　minute　she　is　about　forty　kilometers　south　of　here。〃
　　
　　〃No！〃
　　
　　〃Si；　si；　si！　Ask　Athene　to　call　her。　You　can　be　talking　with　her　in　thirty　seconds。〃
　　
　　〃Uh　。　。　I　still　don't　think　she　would　remember　me。〃
　　
　　〃I　do。　But　there's　no　rush。　If　you　are　surprised；　think　how　surprised　I　was。　I　had　nothing　to　do　with　the　migrants'　roster；　I　was　arse…deep　in　getting　together　what　Ishtar　had　ordered　for　the　clinics。　Justin；　I　didn't　know　Maggie　had　married　again。　So　we're　here　a　couple　of　weeks；　the　headquarters　party；　with　a　temporary　setup　and　still　eating　and　sleeping　in　the　'Dora；'　when　the　first　transport　grounds…then　we're　busy　getting　people　and　supplies　out　in　a　sequence　worked　out　by　Lazarus　and　bossed　by　Ira。
　　
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